Dalia Frey

When I was a child, faith used to be going to synagogue—not really connecting with faith in a good way. It was more like this tradition where we had to go for the high holidays. Listening to the prayers gave me a warm feeling because the singing was nice, and I liked singing. That gave me a feeling of connection, to community, to being part of a community.

But there was separation as well. We were not like the others, although some people said we were ‘the chosen ones.’ I thought, “OK, but if we are the chosen ones, what about the others? Like, where do they come in?”

A door opened for me when I realized after a few years of marriage that my husband had some extra- marital experiences. A few days after I found out, I was in our bedroom feeling devastated and not understanding where my place was. I thought everything was gone. I turned to the door, and I saw an angel standing there. I’d never seen anything like that, ever.

I know now that it was there to show me that there’s more than what we can see. And that’s where real healing comes from. I understood that I wasn’t alone. I felt very alone, but I wasn’t alone. These last years have been quite challenging, but now I’m feeling good. It’s open in the family; I've spoken about it. Everybody deals with it in a different way. Some people don’t want to know. But inside of me, I can feel that there’s healing progressing. And I’m holding my boundaries, which wasn’t possible when I was a child.

Now I know that faith is much more about the concept of we are all one. There’s me and the other, but we are all constantly in contact. Wherever we live, we are in contact. And there’s always this core that’s different. So, when we’re born from the source, there’s like this core that’s me, but then the rest are all in contact and we’re all one.