“I could feel (God) right there with me, telling me…”

When the baby that I was hoping for came too early and I could just feel the sense of so much loss.  And I could feel (God) right there with me, telling me, “I have your dear one with me.”  …I remember being rushed into the hospital but all I could think about was I was having this conversation with God.  “God, why this?  Why now?”  And he said to me, “I have her.”  No body could have healed that hole in my heart the way God did right then….I know in the Psalms it says “They will praise you aloud on their beds.”  And I remember it was probably the hardest time for me to praise God.  But he came in the room in such as way that when other people came in, they could feel him.  They expected me to be inconsolable.  And I was praising him just like I’m doing now, with tears crying.  And he’s just talking to me and saying he has me.  

Polly Nelms Hickman is a beautiful presence and faithful servant of God. Polly lives on a street that is mainly populated by the other members of her immediate family and every night they all gather together for dinner at their father’s house! There is rooted-ness to her faith in this land itself. Her family has lived on the same land for 143 years since her great-grandfather settled there during Reconstruction after the Civil War. Polly’s calling is to serve God through music and by showing His love to others (and when you hear her sing you will see these are one and the same.) It’s been a blessing to meet Polly now as I am an adult and to experience her unconditional love even as someone tangential in the orbit of her life. Polly Nelms Hickman has taught me, yet again, that there is no viable alternative to loving one another fully.