Asmastini Binti Mohamad Noor

I just got back with my husband one month ago. Before that, we were divorced, with six kids. Belief in God is part of faith, yeah? So, we were divorced for two years, and then I came back to him. In the time I wasn’t with him, I could say, “I’m alone with my life, with the kids. And all the trouble I’m in, he won’t fix. We kept arguing: “You are wrong.” “I’m wrong.” “Okay?” “You are not good at this.” “I’m not good at this.”

Suddenly, you want me to talk about faith and I tell you about the one day I wanted to get back to my husband because it was the day I attended one meeting when they showed me a slideshow. In the video, I saw all the backstory with my children. I saw when they had their father around. I compared it with the time they didn't have their father around. At that time, I felt something in my heart. I could not see just his wrong. I asked, “What about me?” 

Then I knew. I’m also not perfect. I’m also not good. But that was also him, like me. We are just human beings, and no human being in this world is perfect. Only God is perfect. For us, as Muslims, only Allah is perfect. He’s the One. As human beings, we are not perfect.

So, I cannot pay anything to my children. Nothing cannot change If I take away their father from their life when we are divorcing. I can see through the eyes of my kids I owed them something for that. It’s the love, it’s the love, it’s the father’s love. 

That night I saw him, we discussed it, and we got back together again. 

When the faith came into my heart, I realized who’s me to keep the love, the father’s love, from my kids? To separate them. So, I made a decision. Whatever I needed to sacrifice, I sacrificed and got my family back together.